Looking at the piano makes my heart break. I question myself will I be able to do this? Looking at the mirror, I don't know why, why this is really happening. I break my own heart.
I played the Bridal Chorus without looking at her. Remembering back what I had been through. The time tickling and I just wish I had the chance that time. I don't know and I never wanted to know now. I just wish I will be able to erase all those memories.
I remember her smile. I remember her tears. I remember her smell. That's what makes me stronger. But now, its all shattered to pieces. I can't mend it anymore.
Tears coming from the tip of my eyes. ARGH!! I should be happy today. I should smile to her. Looking at her blissful face beside him, my heart ache more and more.
The wedding dress she wore makes her so beautiful. You should be my lady.
I walk away with heavy steps. Be happy with him. I shall leave now as you can't be mine forever. Be happy with him and I will move on.
Goodluck for the upcoming exam!!! It's been a long time since I updated this blog.. Wait for more this hols!!! I will update the fic and lots more.. Hehe.. For now, off to study *yeah right* ^^ May God bless we all and get good grades this sem..
Short preview about every chapter.. hehe.. sorry to keep you all waiting..
Chapter 5: Still Jane's point of view. Her feeling's dilemma...
Chapter6: Yah~~ It's Onew's point of view.. Curious what is inside Onew's heart and mind?? well figured it out in this chapter..
Chapter 7: Still Onew's point of view.. more about what he think..
I think this will be the longest post I ever made.. huhu.. hope you all enjoy reading it.. Have a happy day!!!
Chapter 5: Is it love?
My one week vacation will be over tomorrow. Why am I soo sad? Leaving Korea saddening me or because..
“Jane, day dreaming about me??”
“Hurmm?”
“Nothing. So what do think of your vacation??”
“Super COOL!! I love Korea. I hope I can come here again. ”
“Jane…”
“Jane, Onew. It’s late now. We better get going. I’m tired and I need some rest.”
Aish.. What is wrong with Jay? Can’t he see that we both are talking?
“Onew, what you want to tell me just now?”
“Oh, nothing important.”
Haizzz. I’m too tired to think further what he wants to tell me. Both my body and mind need some rest. Enough thinking for today.
“Jane..”
“Yes???”
OMO!! What was that?? Is that real??
~~~
Why I can’t sleep? Please go to sleep!! Sleep!!
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“Jane..”
“Yes???”
Suddenly he hugs me so tight until I can barely hear his heartbeat ….
OMO!! What was that?? Is that real??
I look around. No one was there. Huh..
“I like you”
“Me too”
Hurmm??!! What did I say??
“Get some rest, Jane.”
“Ok…”
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Huh!! My heart beat faster and faster. Is it love??
~~~
The very next day is our flight back.
“Onew, thanks for taking care of us during our stay here. It’s been a great week for me.”
“It’s my pleasure, Jay. Next time when you come here, call me.”
“Thanks, Onew.”
“Come, Van. Jane can you pass me that bag?”
“Errrmmm.. Hey, can I talk to Jane for a while??”
“Sure. Don’t be long or else you will miss your flight.”
“Thanks, Jay.”
“Yes? Anything important?”
“Ermm.. About last night.. I’m serious about it. Well…”
I’m serious too.. I like you, Onew…
“I like you since I first saw you, Jane. Here, open this when you already in the plane. Don’t let anyone see this.”
He gives me a small box together with an album.
“Even Jay and Van??”
“Hurmm… yearp..”
“Ok.”
“Thank you. I will miss you.”
“I miss you too. Bye, Onew”
Crazy. I’m crazy. We both are blushing now. I don’t know from where I have the courage to do this.
~~~
I look down. It’s just clouds everywhere. Sad? Happy? Hurmm.. For sure I missed someone right now. Ah!! The box and the album. Onew!! What a wonderful thing he prepared for me. It’s all the pictures taken during our stay and the sticker pictures are soo cute. This box… I think I will open it after I reach home.
Onew, I miss you!!
~End of Chapter 5~
This chapter will reveal what is on Onew’s mind all this time. Starting from chapter 3 when Van, Jane and Jay went to Korea for their holiday.
Chapter 6: The Unexpected
I’m nervous. Why do I feel so nervous? It’s been 14 years since then. The day that I meet her. That warm and beautiful smile. I can barely remember it until now. How I long to see her. Maybe she didn’t remember me. What will she think when we meet? I’m really nervous now. Didn’t expect to meet her again like this. My luck I think!
~~~
“Hello. My name is Lee Jinki. You can call me Onew.”
“Hello….”
She didn’t remember me? Why she give me that kind of look. Do I look kind of weird?
“Onew, nice to meet you again. Let me introduce to you my girlfriend, Vanessa and my best friend, Jane.”
“Hi, nice to meet you.”
“Nice to meet you too.”
Vanessa, I remember her too. She is the one that always protect her during that time.
She has grown beautiful. Really beautiful. I can’t get my eyes out of her sight. I keep on taking a peek of her. At a point, our eyes meet. My heart beats faster than usual. Am I…
“So you learn Korean? So can I speak Korean with you?”
She is hesitating..
“Urmm.. Yes.. but I’m afraid its sound bad.”
“It’s ok. You need to converse more in order to improve your pronounciation.”
“Well, do I sound ok?”
“Yes, not bad at all.”
“OK, OK. Like I sense something ‘strange’ happening here.”
“Van, we should not disturb them. ”
Seems like she didn’t remember me at all. Can’t blame her about it. It’s been too long since then and it’s just a short meeting.
“Jane, are you ok??”
“Huh?? Oh!! Yeah, I’m fine. Just a bit hungry.”
“Jay, come let me bring you all to a good place to eat.”
“That’s what I’ve been waiting for.”
~~~
14 years ago…
“Hey you!! New boy!! Yes, I’m talking with you! Can’t you hear me? Do you have hearing problem?”
What should I do? That oversize-scary looking boy called for me. What he wants from me?
“Whhaaaaat.. What I can do for yyoooou??”
“My, my little squid. Are you afraid of me? Don’t be afraid. I just want to take a look in your tiny little bag. Give me your bag!”
What should I do? Do I have to hand in my bag?
“I said your BAG!”
“Ok.. Here..”
That oversize boy throws all of my stuff into the ground. I’m not sure what he’s looking for.
“No money? No foods? All this rubbish. Just rubbish.”
“Money? Foods?”
“Yes!! Don’t you have any of it? Haish! Useless!!”
Suddenly a cute girl came and helps me out.
“What are you doing to him?”
“Nothing…”
“Come let me help you with your stuff.”
Her smile. The warm smile that she gave to me.
~~~
Nami Island!! It’s so refreshing here. I just can’t wait to be by her side today.
“Ahh.. This is what I need. Fresh air!!”
“It’s beautiful here, isn’t it?”
Seems like Jay and Van enjoying the fresh air and the beautiful scenery as well.
“Nami Island. A place where there are romances and different beauty of each season.”
Beautiful like you…
“Hurmm.. Sounds romantic. Haha.. So are we going to stand here whole day?”
“So, what do you want to do? Cycling? Swimming?? Or we just can walk around and feel the nature.”
“Let’s walk. I want to visit the place where they filming ‘Winter Sonata’ ”
I have to be close to her. I want to know her more.
“Hey, where is Jay and Van? I didn’t realize they are not with us.”
“They went to rent bicycle over there. Come let’s get going.”
Her soft hand press tightly with mine. It felt really good.
“Jane, do you remember me? It’s been a long time. I think you can’t really remember meeting me in the past.”
She seems lost. Did she hear me?
“Jane? Back to earth, my dear Jane.”
“Yeah?? What?”
“You look lost in your mind. Never mind. Now, here we are. This is the place.”
Haizz…
“Is it? It’s beautiful.”
“Indeed. So, do you like here?”
“Yes!! A lot! I never dreamed of being here on my own.”
“Now you’re here. Haha. Funny girl.”
For one hour we talk and laugh. It’s fun to be close with her. She is cute, cheerful and really sweet.
“Onew hyung!”
“Key! What are you doing here?”
“Hyung ah. I didn’t expect to meet you here.”
Key! What the heck he is doing here? I’m doomed! What’s with that smile? Haizz… They didn’t mention to me they want to go Nami Island before. Is it a sudden plan?
“Hyung, who is this cute girl standing next to you? Aish, keeping a cute girl by yourself. Hyung, this is unfair.”
“Key, this is Jane. Jane this is my friend, Key.”
“Anyeong haseyo.”
“Anyeong. Nice to meet you.”
“Hyung, the rest of them is here too. I better get going. Don’t worry about anything, hyung. I will take care of it. See you later. Nice to meet you, Jane.”
Nice to see you too, Key! How am I supposed to explain to them if Key told them? Haizz.. Big problem!!
“Come, Jay and Van are waiting for us.”
~~~
Back in the apartment.
“Hyung! You missed a great trip today. What a waste. We went to Nami Island. Its manager-hyung suggestion since us all needs some fresh air.”
Hurmmm.. Since Taemin didn’t mention about me, I think Key keep it with him. Thanks Key!
“Good for you all. Did you enjoy yourself?”
“Hyung. Welcome home. How is your day?”
Key gives me a cheeky smile. Aish.. I’m going to knock his head after this. Just wait and see.
“My day is fine. Just a bit tired. I’m going to bed now. Good night. Key…”
I give eyes sign to Key. Command him to go into the room together so that I can talk to him in private.
“Hyung!”
“Okay.. okay.. I know you must be really curious. She’s the one that I’ve been talking about.”
“Childhood sweetheart?”
“Hurmmm.. yearp..”
“Owh! Interesting!”
“Aish, Key ah. Don’t tell the rest of them, okay!”
Suddenly the door is wide open. I can see all three of them smiling in embarrassment. Haizz.. They secretly hear our conversation.
“Hyung!! You have a girl?? It’s unfair! You never told us about it.”
“Taemin ah. Wait, wait. Let me explain.”
“Hyung, keeping a girl by yourself. Wah!! Unbelievable!”
Jonghyun look at me with a jealousy look.
“Okay, I will tell you all about it. Let’s go to the living room.”
“Hyung, its ok with me if you have a girl. It’s your right to have one.”
“Thanks, Minho. The truth is…”
“The truth is Onew-hyung didn’t have a girl yet.”
All eyes look at Key. Waiting for the next word.
“Yes, it’s really complicated. I think it’s about time for me to tell the truth.”
“We are ready, hyung.”
~~~
“You ok? Do you hurt?”
I’m okay. Not okay. I’m okay.
“I’m fi-fine…”
“You are new here, right? My name is Jane. Nice to meet you.”
“Lee..”
“I have to go. My friends there are waiting for me. Take care okay! Bye!”
From that day, I often saw her passing by that park. Most surprisingly we are in the same schoo but not in the same class. Unfortunately, I have to go back to Korea after a month. I wonder when I will meet her again.
~~~
“That’s how I meet her. I think she didn’t remember me.”
I wonder what she thinks about me. A weird guy? Do I stand a chance for her? Aish.. Stop dreaming. I need to focus now. No playing around and more hard work.
~End of Chapter 6~
Yah~~ Another story from Onew's side.. enjoy...
Chapter 7: I Like Her…
“Hyung, going out again today?”
“Yearp.”
“Enjoy your day!”
“Thanks Minho!”
“Here.”
“What is this?”
“For a better luck in relationship.”
“Aigoo… Thank you, Minho!”
“Hyung!! Hyung!!”
“What is it, Key?”
“Don’t forget to kiss her!! Hahaha!!”
I’m blushing now. They all laugh at me. Aish, playing around with me.
“Okay!! I will!! Just wait and see!!”
“Wah!! I’m jealous now!! I want to kiss also.. Taemin!! Taemin!!”
Key chase over Taemin to kiss him. Little kids. Always playing around. Kiss her?? Hurmm..
~~~
“Jane, day dreaming about me??”
“Hurmm?”
“Nothing. So what do think of your vacation??”
“Super COOL!! I love Korea. I hope I can come here again. ”
“Jane…”
“Jane, Onew. It’s late now. We better get going. I’m tired and I need some rest.”
Aish… I have to do something. Kiss?? No, I can’t! It’s too early for me to express myself in that way. I think if I just do that she won’t be angry with me…
“Jane..”
“Yes???”
~~~
“So, hyung. Did you kiss her?”
“Key ah. I just joke around this morning. It’s not polite for me to do that. Especially to a girl that I just met.”
“What happened today, hyung?”
“Taemin. You haven’t slept yet? Hurmm… I just hug her. I don’t have the guts to do more than that since we just met.”
“A hug? Wah, I’m totally jealous right now!! A hug for me Taemin ah!!”
“Key hyung!! NOOO!! I don’t want!!”
Looking at them playing around soothe my mind a bit. Tomorrow she will going back to her hometown. Again another goodbye. I can’t help myself to be sad and disappointed in the same time. How I wish I can be by her side for more than one week. Looking around the apartment makes me think twice about what I just thought of. After all the hard work, I can’t let myself down for this small thing.
“Hyung, are you sure you ok?”
“Why, Minho? Do I look not ok to you?”
“Hurmm… Kind of…”
“Thank you for your concern, Minho. I appreciate it.”
“Hyung, if you need anyone to talk with, I always open for it.”
“Okay, I will. Now, you all need to go for bed. To bed everyone!”
Am I really not okay? I’m not sure.
Aish!! Just let it go, Onew!! Forget about her!! You can’t fall in love now. This is the time of your life. No! No! No! I can’t ignore my own feelings. I can’t lie to myself. I like her!!
